Wednesday, March 22, 2006
i'm too braindead to think of a title
i'm bored on a weeknight. something's wrong. usually, i'll be rushing like crazy to finish my homework. and on this night that i'm free, everyone else is busy. well, not everyone. not many people are online, and majority of those who are online, are busy, or away.
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i rather be busy. but then again, it's hard to say. i just read some people's blog. and i have to say. i really looooooove their english. i mean, really, i want to have good english. well, i'm TRYING to read more. trying. lols. oh gosh. i'm very VERRRRRRRYYYYYY bored.
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oh. i just thought about what to write about. i have been thinking of switching church recently. well, i've thought of it before. i really am not sure. i mean i've been in that church since i was a baby. but some people just have to come in and ruin everything. i know we're not suppose to judge and all. but i just cant help it. i wont put the blame on them. well, maybe i'm just not a strong enough christian. i mean my faith is still there. i think. but it wouldnt be there much longer. i love the adults there. but, i wouldnt say the same thing for the youth. for the youths who actually bother to read my blog, well, no offence. i'm not making any personal attacks. i go to church, or rather, i drag my feet to church, and then sit for 2 hours, and i'm out. i used to enjoy going to church.
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although my mom and dad has already agreed that if i really want to change church, that i think i would be growing better in another church, they would let me. but, i dont wanna leave gracieee alone. apparently, she feels the exact same way. and what about all those talks about "you're in that church for a reason" i mean, my church isnt getting any bigger, the least i should do is to stay in there, hang in there. perhaps a miracle would happen. my sister has been through this before i guess. well, she came back anyway. i mean, every church will have their problem. for all you know, i would meet the same problem in another church. i mean, i'll just be running away from the problem. what use is that?
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and some of you might say, you go to church to worship God and all, but you have to admit, the people there play a very big role as well. argh. i hate making decisions.
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alright, it's getting late. my eyes are tired too.
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toodles
simple/elpmis
10:33 PM
