tsktsk. this is the last straw. i wouldnt say i'm pissed off. i'm more of frustrated and disappointed. i really didnt expect such a comment from you, really. but today really was the last time. i cant tolerate it anymore. i mean, from primary school, till now, i've been receiving comments like "sam.. dont act cute la" or "sam act blur only" seriously, do you think i have so much time to think about such stuff. "ooh... maybe i should act cute this way, or act blur that way" i mean if you really think this way, then you dont know me well enough. and for those of ya'll who are thinking "aiya, she obviously wants to defend herself" i would like to ask, why in the first place are you reading this? why would you wanna know what a "act cute" or/and "act blur" person's thinking? so yes, that cross at the top right hand corner is made just for you. go on, click it.
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anyway, back to this whole thing. i think people who have such thoughts obviously are childish and immature. if i were that good at acting, then what am i doing in beatty secondary? wont i be better off at mediacorp? if i'm acting, then i'm really good then, i've been maintaining my "cuteness" or "blurness" at such a good level. i mean people still think i'm acting cute! am i good or what? i mean hello? i'm me. what do you want me to do. put on a dull face, and be all melancholic. and then again, if i do that, those people will say, "aiya, sam is just wallowing in self-pity" tell you what, i dont crave attention. i dont mind being a loner. though i dont like to, but if being a loner frees me from people who think that i'm a fake, a poser, a person who craves attention, a person who cant live without attention, then introversy, here i come.
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this isnt the first. last year, we had this thing that miss tiffany tan wanted us to do. you write your name on a piece of paper, and pass it around class, and people will write their opinion of you. so, it'll be anonymous. so guess what, most of them were "act cute" well not most, but there were a lot of such comments. and later towards the year, it stopped. and just recently in started again. >.<" i wont mention names here. just recently, i smiled at someone. and another someone said i was acting cute. like what?! i mean that is the most shittiest bullshit i've heard in my entire life. smiling = acting cute. woahhhhhh. you have no idea how much you redefined the meaning of acting cute.
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look, i accept your apology. i just want to make this clear. this word, or rather phrase, is very sensitive to me. i've tahan-ed it for soooo long. i mean i dont mind people calling me names. though, it gets irritating overtime. but this whole acting cute/blur thing, it really is getting to me. it's plucking my last nerve. i mean if an acquaintance said that to me, i wouldnt really mind that much, given the reason that, this person obviously doesnt know me well enough. but you? sheesh man.
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for those of you who still think that i'm such a poser, a fake, a person who craves attention, a person who loves to act cute/blur, and didnt click that little X at the top right hand corner, and still thinks that i'm all of the above, i dont care. you arent worth my time. i'm doing this for the last time. if you still wanna think that way, be that way.
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anyway, today, i stayed back for the sculpure thingy initially. but guess what? after searching the whole school for miss tan, she wasnt in school! so i stayed in school and did a little homework.
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alright. that's all for today.
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toodles.
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5:26 PM
