tsktsktsk. it's the weekend, but i aint happy. too many things on my head.
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anyways, pe was okay today... the emath test was okay too. i just forgot how to solve perfect squares. but it's just a test. then physics was okay. aishu was entertaining me. lols. then mother tongue was okay too. i got back my geography test. i'm satisfied. but there's definitely room for improvement
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arghhh! my mom just came in and nagged that i'm spending toooo much time on the computer. i already planned to wake up eeearly tomorrow to complete my homework. yada yada yada.
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i'm super duper flustered now. so if you're smart, you'll know what to do. i cant stand it! i'm so frustrated. ibatiofxgiat! okay, firstly, tests are coming in, it's the common test period. so there's test, after test, after test. and to top it all, my piano exam's coming. i cant afford to fail. do you know how much it is to take that exam! and i want to quickly finish my piano thingy. i already received the confirmation letter thingy. 11 march! at HDB hub, again! that's the place i failed my grade 6 or 7 practical. i forgot which. oh that dreaded place.
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okay, then after school, aishu and i went to mac. sukma came later. cheer up yea? i know it's hard. especially when it came from a person who's frustrated. okay, while walking to mac, and in mac. i had a lonnng talk with aishuu.
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hey, i'm really sorry i wasnt there for you. maybe i just aint sensitive enough. i thought it was just mood swings. but hey! how dumb can i get. my dear aishu doesnt get mood swings does she. =D. but still i'm sorry. i guess i was too caught up in my own stuff. and thanks gal, i had fun. though the spastic pictures are really spastic, it'll remind me of today. :). (oh yes, and those of you who think you look spastic in photos, wait till you see mine.) but after fun, reality smacks you right on your face. still, i'm flustered. but it's nice to know there's someone there. i guess. but, i dont want to dump my problems on her. it's not that i dont trust you. i just think that you have enough problems yourself. you need to take a rest. :) that's why we stopped talking about 'problems' halfway through right?
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and to sher: i'm sorry too. i've been such a jerk to you. i'm not sure 'jerk' is the right word to use here, but that's how i feel. i've been a very very bad friend. i feel like such a bitch. yea, the same thing again, i wasnt sensitive enough. too caught up with myself. i really really am sorry. it's probably my fault we've drifted apart. since last year, i was too caught up with exams, i totally forgot what's more important. and well, it continued well till this year. i'm sorry. give me time okay? i need to sort things out. trust me, it isnt easy being me. dont get me wrong, that's not an excuse. i'm not sure if she'll read it. but it's worth a shot.
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this problem. was just there since i stepped into school. funny how things work out. in primary school, i was the one being left out and all. and oh how i wished i was the person in the middle. but now. looks like i got what i 'wanted'. >.<" and trust me. it isnt nice. not one bit. and please, if you think i'm typing all this out just because i crave attention, i'm sorry, you dont know me well enough.
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